I am going to share something that has been weighing on me this week. It is not something easy to share but I believe that is on my heart because someone needs to hear it.
One of my nieces, from my husband's side passed away last week; I never met her, she lived in another state, our relationship consisted of social media. I could see how funny she was, such a beautiful young girl, with a beautiful son, she loved life.
But then I started noticing that up and down that I experienced before I met Jesus. Her post would go from having fun at the park with her son to post about depression and anxiety along with partying and drinking. I would always think to say something, like girl run , turn around, this type of life only leads to more emptiness. I wanted to tell her the joy that comes from the Lord is unmatchable, but instead of expressing that, I let myself believe, who am I to say anything? She doesn’t know me! And if she remembered the old me, she would be like really, you from all people are giving advice?
So instead, “I” decided to buy her a book, a book that helped me with my anxiety and depression. I asked my husband what he thought and he gave me a strange look but shook his head "yes", and then life happened, and all those little lies. I never got her address.
I missed that opportunity, maybe the book wouldn’t have been received well, from someone who had never personally met her but I should have done it. I should have allowed the Holy Spirit to lead me. I know that wasn’t my idea, it was Him working through me, and I allowed the enemy to put those doubts in my mind. Don’t let those opportunities pass you by. If God puts something on your heart don’t let it die there. Do it, say it, speak life to people even if they are not ready to hear it!
I am HIS, the old me is gone, this goes to you too, the enemy has NO authority over us we can’t let him win. Yes, I was a drunk, I was a fool, I was so lost, BUT GOD!